Mother's Day Reflection

I met you on a beautiful sunny day. It was Wednesday, February 25, 2009. This was the day I became your mommy.

With nervous, excited bubbles in my stomach, I woke up early, took a shower and put on makeup, did my hair and got dressed in a bright red top with my favorite maternity pants.

Nana and Papa walked your daddy and I out to the car, waved goodbye with tears of excitement in their eyes. The next time I saw them, I would have you in my arms.  This was an exciting day for all of us.

When we arrived at the hospital things moved quickly- they signed me in, got me a gown and quickly took a peak inside my belly to make sure you were doing well and ready to join the world.

They rolled me into the operating room and Dr. Kroll was ready for me. She even added some mood music - we had Coldplay playing in the background. Maybe that is why now, to this day 7 years later, we still listen to Coldplay when it's bed time....It reminds me of the day you were born.

I was very insistent that even though I was having a planned C-Section I wanted to see you being born. If I couldn't "birth" you myself, I wanted to see it.

The Dr. was wonderful and when the time came, he lowered the sheet that was blocking the surgical sites and I saw you. Your little pink legs, your big belly, and then your giant head of black hair. I have never seen anything so beautiful.

Then I heard you cry. Crying your first announcement to the world that you had arrived! Luciana Capri Bednar was here.

As I held you and nursed you, my heart burst with a love I will never be able to explain. The love I have for you is so big ~ The love only a mother can truly understand.

I had no idea what was to come after that day. Would you be like me? Would you be like Daddy? As you have grown, you are a blend of your Daddy and I. You look just like him but you have my temperament.

You are fun, sensitive, a good friend, a wonderful daughter and grandaughter. You love your family, your pets, your friends. You love Math, skiing, playing with your kitties, dressing like a princess, playing with makeup. You are all girl! My girly girl. You are extraordinary!

You are exactly the little girl I dreamed about having since I was a little girl.

Thank you for making me a mother ~ this is by far the best role that I have.

I love you.

xoxo Mommy